introducing me:)

hi. i come from a family of 8. my parents are happily married. both teach me to love god and to obey his commands. we are financially stable. i have grown up attending church. i went to a private christian school. I have food to eat, clothes to wear, a bed to rest on, and a roof over my head, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. i am blessed. but nothing I have ever said or done has brought me to this point. god has chosen to place me here. attending kansas state university. within a community of young adults. living on humboldt street w my three beautiful roommates. i am here & i have a purpose here.

as a 19 year old girl, trying to figure out my “purpose” in life can be quite intimidating. so I have forced myself to learn this new habit. i say, “jesus, I trust you!” & then i think about god in all of his power and glory, & ponder his love for me. & when i do this, fear loses its grip. when i follow jesus, i don’t only gain a healthy sense of self-worth, but i gain wisdom, belonging, freedom, and a love so freakin fierce, that my mind cannot even begin to grasp it.

i have decided that i simply cannot do anything by my own means. so long as i am by myself, i am not enough. & that very statement right there makes me desperate. now some of us are embarrassed by our desperation, & see it as a bad thing. but like it or not, we all desperately need the father. once i find my identity as a christ follower, it is only then when i am fully, 100% capable of fulfilling my purpose that god intended for me. i am not enough, nor will i ever be enough. but jesus is more than enough. & i am learning to rely on his strength instead of my own.

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