a lesson, or four, learned-- 9.2.18

This summer God has opened up many doors for me that I didn’t know existed. Y’all change is hard, and lately I’ve been experiencing a lot of it. I have a big sister moving to TX and another going off to college. Trying to figure out my place In life can be hard at times. Change, it can be difficult, but it can also be beautiful. And it ALWAYS reveals more of me to myself. Earlier this summer I prayed for God to put me in my desert place. A place of being uncomfortable. And boy let me tell ya, God came through. Through this process I’ve come to several conclusions, some of them being:

>>>I fear the unknown. Not change. The unknown. As humans we don’t have the ability to see everything God can, and sadly for me to trust God, he has to put me in situations where I have no control. I realized that I am not always privileged to see the big picture. It takes courage to let go of all that is familiar and embrace the change that God has set before us. Change is painful, but without change there is no growth. And the most painful thing is being stuck somewhere you don’t belong.

>>>Prayer is so so P O W E R F U L ! I have asked more and more people to pray for me in this month alone, than I have in way too long. Don’t ask me why, I’m unsure too.:/// but man God shows up friends. This month has been hard because of all this change that has taken place, but through all of it I’ve held a happiness I can’t verbalize. Huh?! Crazyyy:)))

>>>God is a jealous God, and not only till this month did I possess the mindset to grasp it. We CANNOT put anything before him. 1 John 5:21 reads, “Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God’s place In your hearts.”

Last one I promise

>>>Peoples opinions of me can change for any reason in this world, but nothing in this world can change Christ’s opinion of me. I don’t know about any of you, but I am worn out at caring what others think of me. So I decided to be done. I am striving to live a life care free of others opinions. It’s freeing.

Isaiah 40:8 says, “The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of the lord stands forever.”

I am thankful for all of it. The highs. The lows. The blessings. The lessons. The setbacks. The comebacks. The love. The hate. All of it. But none of this just takes place on its own. We have to be willing to submit to God’s authority over our lives. I say all this to conclude w this simple truth. Nothing changes, if nothing changes.